These past few days i felt something different. I don't know what it was. My heart felt like...oh i really don't know how to say. I felt difficult. Hard to breath. Every time i inhale, it's hurt. I don't think i have heart disease (sound horrific) =.=" What had happened to me actually? I don't like this feeling. Totally hate it. I ever experienced this situation once before. When i'm in secondary school. But at that time, i knew why i feel it. But now, i'm confuse. Is it because of the same reason? I don't think so. However, it's not impossible. Yea,for sure it's not impossible. It can be. It can happen for the second time.
If it's true, then what should i do? Just hide it? Just hide it like before? Pretend that i'm a happy-simple-girl-that-not-have-heart-or-whatsoever-feeling person? It's hurting. It's hurting my feeling. I'm a coward person. You too, must think that i'm coward right? Liar. Two-faced. I lied myself. I lied my own feeling. I lied others too. I said something that's not true to make people shut up. I don't want they keep say it. I don't want because i know, the more they say it, it'll become harder for me to avoid that feeling. I know myself. I know my frailty.
Oh the Almighty give me strong heart to face all these sorrowful feelings. I want to be a strong girl. A strong daughter. A strong friend. I'm confident with your tests, i'll be a better person.